The ways of handling grief and loss differ from person to person.You may be good at keeping everything to yourself,but i'm not.I tried to do that but i failed miserably.
I was so devastated at that time and had no one to share this crippling pain.My sister,being the ONLY one who knew the whole story, is generous enough to help.
If it happens to you,i'm completely certain your brothers would react the same way.
I dont have any intention of getting people's attention or sympathy,let alone to make you look bad.
Writing has always been a regular practice of mine and in difficult times like this i write even more often.
I really wish it was a dream.