LiLaCiDiL

The ways of handling grief and loss differ from person to person.You may be good at keeping everything to yourself,but i'm not.I tried to do that but i failed miserably. I was so devastated at that time and had no one to share this crippling pain.My sister,being the ONLY one who knew the whole story, is generous enough to help. If it happens to you,i'm completely certain your brothers would react the same way. I dont have any intention of getting people's attention or sympathy,let alone to make you look bad. Writing has always been a regular practice of mine and in difficult times like this i write even more often. I really wish it was a dream.

What happened to me in the last two weeks made me realize that it's impossible to have everything that i wish for.No matter how hard i try,things just dont work out the way i want them to. So from now on I've to start accepting the truth,facing the reality and learning to move forward. Thank you for the great memories and good times together.They did help me to learn and grow. I just hope this heart of mine will heal  and i'm able to walk through pain as time goes on.Though honestly i think it will take forever to mend a broken heart as a part of me still loves you and always will!  The wheel keeps spinning.It has to. Au revoir

Aku sangat benci bila dengar orang bagitau: Money isn't everything. Biasanya orang yang selalu cakap mcm ni, datangnya daripada keluarga yang senang, yang tak pernah alami kesusahan sejak dari kecil. Ko pernah pakai kasut rm10 dapat 3 pasang? Kasut yang selepas seminggu tercabut tapak kasut Ko pernah naik kereta yang takde tingkap belakang? Terpaksa guna plastik dan guna sellotape. Kalau tak habis semua benda terbang keluar Ko pernah naik kereta yang selalu mati tengah-tengah jalan? Pukul 3,4 pagi terpaksa call orang lain untuk datang tolong. Ko pernah guna duit raya setiap tahun untuk beli barang-barang rumah? Biasanya duit raya aku dan kakak terpaksa digunakan. Ko pernah alami,umur 16 tahun tapi takde duit langsung dalam akaun bank? KOSONG Itupun sebab masuk Kisas baru ada duit. Ko pernah rasa betapa tebalnya muka ko, berhutang dengan kawan tiap-tiap bulan semasa sekolah dulu? Sebab mama terpaksa bagi duit pada kakak terlebih dahulu, Dia urgent nak gu...

Dipendekkan cerita, Bukan xsuka, Tp bukan ke perempuan yg baik, untuk laki yang baik?  Sbb tu aku selalu keep distance. Ramai lagi laki hok bagus/alim/juruh. Ambo cap ayam jah. Cuma jgn bertemu dgn ustaz facebook, mahupun pak lebai sudahlah. Idil