LiLaCiDiL

Hello everyone, How have you been?  I hope life has been good for you. I know things have been tougher ever since the pandemic hit us.  But rest assured that we can get through eventually *** My first job hunting journey was not challenging at all. August 2017 I had my very first interview with a company based in Johor Bahru. It went quite well at the very beginning but ended up with me arguing with one of the interviewers.  Late 2017 I got hired and joined a local company as a researcher. My first working experience was disastrous at best and hell at worst. Having worked in a German company, I could not stand the work culture there.  So many things that are against my principles that I live by. Hated every moment while I was there. Felt more like a slave than a researcher.  As clichéd as it may sound, there was a silver lining. It was there where I met my wife. She made working there at least bearable.  Fast forward now we have been married for over three ...

Hi!  Don't know if anyone of you still reads my blog. It's been ages since my last update. I actually had some time between December 2017 to up until now. Back then in Germany, since my family wasn't around, I wrote whenever I had time. Being a lot closer changes everything now.  I no longer write during my free time. I prefer to spend that time with people I hold dear. As for my heart, it's healing.  Wrote last time that it'd take forever to mend a broken heart.  4 years have passed by and I too have started to feel much better.  Take care everyone. 

One of the things that I really miss about Germany is its christmas markets. German, usually go there to drink Glühwein.  But we, Malaysian just strolled through its beatifully decorated market stalls. We bought 3/4€-worth of sugar roasted almonds. I took some pictures too, whenever I had my DSLR with me. Christmas market has another special meaning for me.  It usually reminded me of her. The first christmas market that I went to was the one in the city of Göttingen. About one hour before my arrival, I received a picture from her via Whatsapp. It was a picture of her holding a piece of paper, on which you-know-what-it-is was written.  That was so random. But who cares?  It was super cute.  She was an undemonstrative girl.  She did not really express her feelings well.  But she was good at venting her anger and frustration. She was still loveable when she was 'mad'. I, for some reasons kept asking myself whether or not our roles were somehow switched....

I was finally able to watch 'Bisik pada Langit' yesterday. Another good malay film that is worth watching. I love the part where Hajar recorded a video and told her parents that whenever she missed home, she would look at the sky and whisper it.  I, too, did the same thing. There was one time when I really really missed home. What I did was I looked at the sky and murmured to myself. It was a starless and moonlit night in Steinfurt.  And as far as I could remember, it was not a silent night as I was actually accompanied by the soothing sound of the fallen leaves, rustling in the autumn breeze. So calming that the sound itself was enough to make me feel a bit melancholy. I guess the effect would be more severe during the day. You have another factor on the list i.e. the resplendent autumn foliage. 

I received a hand-written letter. Judging from the writing, I thought I was able to tell who sent it to me very easily. It was from someone. Someone I have known before. I was certain, 100% sure it was from her.  Excited I tore the envelope and immediately threw it away. Took out the letter and began to read it. " It took you years to write this to me"  I murmured. Had not started reading the content yet.  That delighted I was. A bit frustrated as well.  Had she sent it a bit earlier, I would have felt better. A lot better.  I read every sentence with a smile on my face.  It was like I took a trip down memory lane.  "Ngah, ngah"  I could hear Mama calling for me. I immediately stopped reading so that I could hide her letter, as she neared my room.  Mama's voice echoed and became slightly louder than it was before.  I squinted as the light went on, was not able to open my eyes completely. 'It's time for Sahur' said Mama. It was that momen...

Spring just arrived, It reminds me of you. But you left.  Spring is then, no longer mesmerizing.

I went to Monschau yesterday. One beautiful city which is situated in Aachen district. Aachen was the very first city I visited after moving out from Regensburg. I went there together with my three other seniors. We were not close at that time. So, I still remember now that I was a bit reluctant at first to join the trip when they asked me whether or not I wanted to tag along. Another reason was because it takes 4 hours to arrive in Aachen from Steinfurt ! I did eventually go there. We met other Malaysians there. We ate and talked about this and that and were brought to several famous places in Aachen. One of them was the Aachen cathedral where I took one picture next to its miniature. Yesterday, after seven years I went to Aachen for the second. It was a trip down memory lane. Seven years ago, I was worried sick whether or not I could survive and go back home with a degree. Now, I am about to finish my master degree. 2010 I was about 50-52 kg at that ti...

If you are close to me, you will probably know that I only treasure my family, and don't really care much (or at all) for my other relatives. Those people have been treating us like strangers, although we are related by blood. Now that we all seem to be successful in life, They try to be kind to us. They did send a friend request on facebook, but I never approve. You know, there are certain moments in your life that scar you forever, Their treatment towards us 20 years ago is one of them. Apart from my family, there are a handful amount of people, whom I hold dear as well. One of them is our neighbor. I never really had the opportunities to know what it felt like having good relatives, but being around her always make me happy. Happiness that my real relatives could have provided. Today Mama sent me several messages to inform me that she just passed away. I went to work today reminiscing. Had I received the scholarship, I would have been in Malaysia one ye...

One of many lessons that I got after watching The Flash is, although you are able to travel in time, there are things that you cannot simply change. I actually wept a bit watching these scenes. The thing about being The Flash, Everyone in the Central City thinks they are fortunate enough to have someone to rely on, when something bad happens. But he himself is never happy. He may seem happy on the outside but apparently, he is hopelessly sad inside, especially when those tragic memories strike.

I have recently started my internship. It has been 4 days now. The working atmosphere in a big company is on a whole different level. So far, I am satisfied with everything. Only now, I think Krefeld is somehow a bit too far. I basically spend 3 hours on trains daily. Up until now I never arrive home earlier than 6pm. It's 10.22pm. I know it's still early but I am going to hit the hay now. Adios

Had some free time today after iftar. So I decided to re-draw/sketch this one picture The lady in the original picture that I ramdonly found on Twitter, is stunning!  I know it is just a picture, but it was beautifully drawn. But it turned out that I messed it up. My drawing looks shit. She who was drawn beautiful, ended up being a fat, ugly-looking lady. Here are the original picture and my drawing: As I finished drawing, I laughed at myself really hard.  I am not talented at all. I think my drawing is below average. So, it is completely okay if you laughed after looking at it. Cheers! 

Baru-baru ini aku tengok filem Inception. Sebenarnya itu kali kedua aku tonton cerita ini. Aku masih lagi ingat, kali pertama aku tengok Inception, aku asyik garu-garu kepala yang tak gatal. Lepas itu berhenti tengok buat sementara waktu, untuk baca beberapa perkara yang berkaitan dengan filem ini. Contohnya seperti 'lapisan mimpi', 'limbo', 'totem' dan beberapa perkara lain lagi. Pada pendapat aku, cerita ini memang satu cerita yang berat dan boleh membuatkan penonton berkhayal. Aku rasa Inception memang tak sesuai untuk orang untuk orang yang selalu tengok cerita untuk isi masa lapang. Sebab dalam cerita ini ada aspek yang penonton kena fikir dan turut sama berimaginasi. Sebaik sahaja habis tengok Inception,  aku baring atas katil untuk tenangkan otak. sedar-sedar sudah pun pagi. Aku tertidur.  Jujur aku cakap, filem ini memang memeningkan kepala. Kepada siapa yang belum tengok filem Inception ini,  aku mem...

The result for my last paper came out yesterday, I got 1,7. Not bad I guess, considering the average grade for this subject is 3,4. So I am completely happy with that result. I thought I would only get 2 something, like 2,0 or 2,3. My only target was to pass, nor to pass with flying colors. Happier when I know the worst grade for my Master study is 2,0. Last time I even had one 2,7. Thank you, God, basically for everything. I rarely post my results, But this time, I want to. Just to prove them wrong for not sponsoring me. Kamus: Note = Grade Sehr = very gut = good

Lately I came across many fb posts from my friends, who  just tied the knot. Their posts are way too cheesy. I cannot read them at all, I need to scroll down as quick as i can.  Of course they are free to do whatever they want. They can express whatever they feel. It just makes wonder, how on earth can you write something too cheesy like that? I once apologised to my ex for not being able to be romantic.  I sent her a birthday card every year. But all I wrote was: "Happy Birthday, Wish you for your happiness and may you achieve what you want in your life" And of course with 'I love you' at the end. That one was usually in a smaller font. That was all.  I never wrote longer than that. Let alone something overly cheesy. I think I am not a romantic person. She knows that too. So, I hope my future significant other can understand. I hope she doesnt expect me to write anything cheesy, especially on my Facebook. But other than that, I can probably give it a try, If that wh...

A Chinese acquaintance of mine asked several questions today. She has heard that in Islam women must cover their head after they reach puberty, but why do some still don't wear hijab? It baffled me that I was asked this kind of question from a non-Muslim. Later she asked why do men can have more than one wife in Islam? She also said that she already met someone (Malaysian) with 3 wives. The fact that she knows that guy has 3 wives freaks her out. We always wonder why many hate us, We get infuriated when other Muslims face discrimination. I guess you can blame those people who don't really represent Islam. I am not talking about ISIS, but about those Muslims who drink, commit adultery and other prohibited acts.

Memandangkan susah sangat untuk jumpa contoh soalan yang diajukan, Aku berhasrat untuk berkongsi serba-sedikit berkenaan peperiksaan online ni. Ia mengandungi dua bahagian. 1) Seksyen A - Terdapat 192 soalan semua sekali - Jangan bimbang, 192 memang banyak, tapi soalan ditanya semua berkaitan minat, kebolehan dan sewaktun dengannya. - Pada pengamatan aku, seksyen A ini tujuannya lebih kepada untuk mengetahui kebolehan dan minat kita. - Aku secara peribadi rasa bahagian ini agak senang. 2) Seksyen B - Jumlah soalan 50 dan beraneka pilihan. - Berkaitan dengan pengetahuan am. - Bagi aku, bahagian kedua ini memang susah dan mencabar. - Masa yang diberi adalah 40 Minit. Memang tak cukup. Aku tinggal beberapa soalan. Contoh soalan: 1) Jumlah tulang manusia dewasa? 2) Vitamin yang larut di dalam lemak? 3) Satu mayat ditemui, bagaimana untuk mengetahui mayat itu mayat perempuan atau lelaki? 4) Vitamin yang keluar melalui urin sekiranya diambil secara berlebihan? 5) ...

Aku salah seorang pembaca setia artikel oh bahasaku. Tiga artikel terbaru semuanya berkaitan dengan dialek. Memandangkan aku dari negeri yang dialeknya agak sukar untuk difahami, Aku amatlah faham kebimbangan penulis terhadap penggunaan dialek. Sesetengah aspek yang diutarakan memang betul,  contohnya adik aku sendiri pernah menggunakan dialek di dalam karangan. Bila dibaca, memang kelakar. tapi manalah dia tahu perkataan yang betul dalam bahasa melayu standard, sebab dia dari kecil sampai sekarang sudah terbiasa dengan dialek. Malah aku sendiri kadang-kadang tidak tahu perkataan atau istilah yang betul. Contohnya perkataan 'lemau' aku baru sahaja tahu pada tahun 2007, selepas 17 tahun hidup di Malaysia. Jadi aku agak adik-adik aku yang lain akan mengalami situasi yang sama, Aku pernah tulis pengalaman kali pertama belajar dan tinggal di selangor. daftar dan mula belajar di bulan februari 2006, tapi aku ambil masa 3/4 bulan untuk mula berteg...

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